Completely unmotivated

This is the first Friday night in a while where I’ve been entirely unmotivated. Not to do Hanon, not to scrape away at that hideous disaster of a musical “instrument,” not to learn to play anyone else’s music, not to write my own. And what a crock of shit that is. I play that FM/Ebm thing I came up with, and I can objectively know it’s gorgeous, but I can barely connect with having written it. I don’t even feel like a musician right now.