fine on “Bethena”

*huge intake of breath*

Now, to shed the thing to bits.

Also … well, apparently I still like to slowly wander around my apartment aimlessly noodling on the viola (slow scales, half-scales, maj/min up and down, shifts, etc.). I still can’t manage more than a weekly noodling to ensure that I don’t completely forget how to handle the thing, but evidently, that weekly noodling will remain a part of my life for as long as the viola does. (In other words, until the end and beyond.)

It also means that yes, I do need to get a music stand. Oh, well.

I also need to bake some cinnamon rolls or cookies for my neighbors. Having a beginning string player move in next door is like having the coughing guy with the really bad BO sit next to you on a transcontinental flight.

Update: Music stand acquired, although I still spend most of my time with the viola wandering in a circle nowhere near it and dipping and swaying. I am happy to report that I am still moving in a good direction regards my scroll hand wrist, too. And I can feel small improvements in my fingering (what I call marshmallow fingers) surfacing from time to time. I only hope that the occasional noodling can enable me to at least hold my ground on them instead of sliding backwards.

Different approaches to music

I listened to something last night that I have had for some time but was saving for the right moment. It’s a 43-minute long mp3 of a writing session for a piece of music called “Missing You,” by Steve Perry. Like a lot of his later-era relationshippy music, it’s a tough listen, but aside from that, the approach was fascinating.

I’ve said before that my own approach to music (and to writing it) seems to be more a fascination for the abstract structure of the music, the tinkertoy mobile that hangs in midair in my mind associated with a given piece. Almost the grammar of the piece. That’s what I love. The notes are just the vertices of the 3-d structure that the music itself makes. They’re only there to reveal that structure.

With the viola and most single-note instruments, the beauty is more the perfection and glitter of the individual notes that are at each vertex. The piano (and me when I write) builds the tinkertoy structure, but the viola polishes the gems that are then stuck on each vertex, and a lot of the beauty of that music is in the beauty of the crafted gems.

The “Missing You” writing session exposed a completely different way of approaching writing music as well. (I guess which one resonates more with a given writer is a matter of personality and natural inclination.) “The less there is to say, the more there is to sing” (paraphrase) was flat-out said in this writing session. And while the melody was gorgeous — and labeled as such with the comment “this is such a great melody” by Perry as he was working — a good part of that was due to the room it afforded the singer to move and embellish. It wasn’t too claustrophobic and gave him a lot of room to work in the manner he preferred, concentrate on expressing the message of the song, and which showcased his voice where he knew it was at its best. (Singer-songwriters always write in a way that shows their own unique instrument off best.)

It was almost completely lyrically driven, and also driven in a “telling a story” sort of way that I found was very much like the way that a classical music interpreter has to approach their work as well. Any piece of music is a narrative; a song with lyrics simply makes this obvious. In fact, it’s a damned crying shame that files like this are *coughs weakly* somewhat dubious regarding their legality, because they would be golden for composing students. It’s a shame more writing sessions aren’t available for modern composers/songwriters along the lines of Valentina Lisitsa’s youtubed practice sessions. As useful as this is, I’m sure that other composers noodle and work in different ways, even other rock and R&B composers/songwriters. We tend to see only the polished, finished product when it comes to pop/rock, and classical/jazz is where the hood gets lifted to see all the fiddly bits. Pop/rock are completed commodity items, and classical/jazz are the DIY stuff. I’d kill to lift the lid on more real pop/rock songwriters. What I wouldn’t give for a similar writing session from Jeff Lynne or Dennis DeYoung …

It was also very impressive to note that, as a working writing session, this file was not autotuned, cleaned up, or rendered fit for consumption but simply recorded as-is. Except for the moments (fewer than I could count on one hand) when Perry was hesitating or would interrupt himself and rework something, he was exactly on the center of the note every single time. It reminded me of the way that Yo-Yo Ma might pick up a cello bow and noodle casually — sounding perfect the whole time. It was the sort of negligent perfection that is anything but negligent and speaks of decades of hard labor, and an insatiable appetite for getting it exactly right.

Doing it right is non-negotiable. You do it right when performing. You do it right when practicing. You do it right when writing. You do it right when noodling. You just do it right. That’s step zero, no matter what. There is no excuse for not doing it right.

Also, I’m familiar with this song, but less so than with some of his other work. (Again, his later-era love songs are a bit draining to listen to.) In every single instance where he was noodling around and I was thinking to myself, “XYZ is a better lyric,” or “drop down there at the beginning so you can go up later,” that is precisely what he would wind up doing. He always ended up making the best possible choice for the music, in every instance. Unfailing instincts and training. Extremely impressive.

Anyway.

Writing versus playing other people’s stuff

They really do interfere with one another, or have so far. It’s annoying. Learning “Bethena” has enabled me to PLAY my own music much better, but it definitely impacts my writing. There is no way in hell that I would be able to squeeze viola into all this. :-( I miss my viola. It’s beautiful and it’s a very different view on music, and one that I can stand to absorb a bit.

I am going to have to shed “Bethena” and then just call a temporary moratorium on learning new pieces for a while. I think this leapfrog approach is all that will work for me in the future, but we’ll see. Learn a new, challenging piece, write one, learn one, write one … Doing both simultaneously is just very, very difficult. Each requires an enormous amount of attention away from the piano. When learning a piece, I need to focus on mental practice away from the thing, working on seeing myself doing it, even while falling asleep. When writing a piece, I need to use all that free time to hum and mumble to myself silently (well, hopefully silently for the sake of people next to me in line in the supermarket). Swapping from one to the other takes time — I find that it’s just not possible to flip effortlessly from mental practice to mental writing. The gear-shift takes time to occur.

And after I’m done with “Bethena,” I want to get back to writing. I’ve got two pieces to finish up (the C#m thing finally, and the dissonant Em thing that surfaced a while back), not to mention the two “songs” that I cranked out (the pop song in G that I woke up humming months ago and the Shirley-Jones thing in A).

I’ll keep moving with “Bethena” since just shedding that is a great lesson in technique, but after I’ve reached fine on it, it’s back to writing again for the time being until I feel I need a break. Originally, I felt like I needed a break after the Fm, which was like giving birth to an elephant. Now … break’s almost over.

Like I said, leapfrog.

ROLLING CHORD ARGH

There is ONE stupid chord in the second theme of “Bethena” that I cannot hit without rolling! It’s driving me bonkers. It distracts me when I play that theme, and I can’t pay attention to the rest of the stupid thing because that one chord is looming in my brain the whole time. I can’t think of the other issues in that theme — and it’s a challenging one, so there are many — and I can’t think of interpretive issues, either. 100% of my attention is on not rolling that goddamned chord, and I need to just squash this problem completely and do it now.

IIRC, it’s an Eb/Bb/C just before the theme starts up again for the second time, and I hit it sloppy every. Single. Time. I can very occasionally make it work by rotating my right elbow into my ribcage, but that’s not solving the problem. The problem is in the hand, and using the arm to solve it is like sweeping the mess under the rug; it still peeks out from time to time. The problem is in the hand, and it only shows up at speed, so it’s hard to zero in on just what’s causing the issue. This is where I would benefit from having a good teacher looking at me from the outside while I’m playing.

Maybe I can try other fingerings, I don’t know. It’s also sandwiched between two other chords that require different orientations to the hand to get them right. Technique-wise, it’s like having two bites of chicken curry with a bite of chocolate cake between them.

I’ve got to just keep banging away at that one phrase in various ways until that roll gets gone. This has gone on long enough, and I’m sick of it. I want that stupid chord to not roll anymore so I can start paying mind to the rest of the theme. I have had it with this.

Into the DM theme in “Bethena”

It’s required a few instances of particular attention to fingering to make it work, but that’s why it takes people years to get any good.

And it constantly amazes me how much better everything gets with a little elbow grease expended in another arena. Work one thing and everything improves. It’s wonderful.

I’ll sit happily where I am for a bit and then close up “Bethena” this weekend, probably. Then, it’s time to polish and polish and polish.

Good things happening with “Bethena”

I’ve got four themes under my belt to the point where I can mostly pound through up to the point where it moves from Bm to DM with these two big, chunky chords. (I love that Bm theme in the middle to bits. So beautiful.) I’m starting to think in terms of interpretation as well, how I want it to sound, what things I can do with the main theme with each repeat, and how I can vary each repeat of the secondary themes. One can’t play something exactly the same way twice; you have to make the music evolve as it goes or else it gets boring. Revisiting a theme allows one to find new things in it.

The second theme in Bb still takes every ounce of stuff I’ve got, but it’s getting better. I’m at the point now where it’s just a matter of doing it a million times. Third theme is not bad but has a few sticky bits where I have to make sure to call out the melody in some enormous, fairly dense chords. Fourth theme is more of a challenge than I would have thought since it’s not hard per se. However, it’s so incredibly beautiful and lyrical, and the melody is so simple that it’s very exposed. You really do have to get it right. I’ve heard people talk about Mozart like that — he won’t kill you on technique, but you need to get everything exactly right. He and that fourth theme in “Bethena” are like cooking with four ingredients; you can’t hide anywhere. If anything is off, it shows.

Then, there’s the big splashy theme in DM … then, back to the main theme in GM, and I have to keep something in reserve about it and figure out what it is I want to say as I visit it for the last time.

Someone on a piano forum someplace once said, “You know, there are other ragtime composers aside from Scott Joplin.” Okay … but so what? :-) Most classical types (other than myself who is sick to my back teeth of the guy) are aware that there are other composers besides Chopin, too. They just don’t care.

Then, I want to get back to the Ginastera so that I can get that back into shape and have two good pieces (that I didn’t write) ready to go. Keeping up with the Fm (that I did write) is the next one, then it might or might not be back to the Grieg or else on to some Glinka. And I shouldn’t neglect that Bm thing I wrote, either.

And of course, there’s the C#m and that weird dissonant thing I wrote in Em. I’d like to sit and think about that one more, just work on a second and third short theme to go with it, but I need to be in a bit more introspective mood to do it. The advantage of the C#m is that it’s more sound-driven and less emotion-driven, so I can sit and work on it no matter what.

That damned C#m thing

It’s driving me bonkers. This is what I get for just winging it. I’ve now written something the grammatical structure for which is mystifying me, and now that it’s gotten long enough that I need that structure to lean on, I can’t figure it out. *argh*

BTW, if one needs to get to IMSLP, it can be reached here: http://petruccimusiclibrary.org/

Apparently, some people want to see the entire concept of “public domain” demolished outright so that they can keep making money from other people’s hard work, even when those people have been dead for centuries.

You want to make money in the music business? Then go goddamned learn an instrument or write the stuff. Otherwise, stay the hell out of the way of those of us who have.

Chunks and gruel

I had a bit of a breakthrough for myself regarding the structure of that C#m thing that had been puttering along but never felt “congealed” to me. Part of the problem was that it felt sort of amorphous/isotropic to me, like a bowl of gruel. Not a lot of large-scale structure. It’s in 3/8, which I think is related.

Stuff that’s in 4/4 or 12/8, or some larger chunky measure size like that, reminds me of American food, where every course is pretty much a large chunk of something that has to be cut up at the table. A steak, or a whole potato. Mostly large-scale structure.

Stuff that’s 6/8 or 3/4 strikes me as Chinese food, where the courses are cut into small, bite-size or at least more manageable chunks. Medium-scale.

This blasted 3/8 is like food where the “chunks” into which things are cut are the size of a grain of sand. It’s like a goddamned bowl of farina. There is much less large-scale structure, so it was hard for me to grasp what was going on with the thing on a large scale. I ended up having to plot it out and just mark up the music by hand to find out what was going on with these three pages of stuff I’d written. How I still managed to get three pages out without knowing what the hell was going on I have no idea; I guess that’s part of the “fluency” argument that can be made about music, where people can speak a language without grammatical understanding. (Think it’s impossible? Try teaching linguistics to undergrads.)

Untimately, it seemed that what was going on was that the end measure for each phrase was functioning as a pickup for the next one, but it appeared staggered to me until I just sat down with a pencil and worked it out.

Once again … composing completely “by feel?” What a charming, romantic, cluelessly false notion. Perhaps some day when I’ve gotten closer to my 10,000 hours I will be going by feel, but until then, not a chance. Some things can be done by feel, and some just require one to lift the lid and get out the owner’s manual.

C#m thing and “Bethena” advances

Another page of “Bethena” — although this is going to take work on my part — and a few more bars of the C#m thing. A little time spent getting used to a sharp 3 on the viola as well.

In general, a nice day yesterday after a Saturday spent moving and unpacking. Unhappy about the Philadelphia Orchestra (apparently it was a controversial and not entirely warranted decision in some opinions), but we’ll see where it heads from here.

More slow and steady

I really do just seem to sit down and mess around and drop one measure at a time on things. Come home from work (and pack boxes, which will not continue for much longer thankfully), sit at piano and decompress for a bit, noodle around, finally set a left hand to the “next phrase” I’ve been humming to myself in my head for a week or so, work on it for a bit, write it down, rinse and repeat.

It’s nice. :-)